Jun 25 2010

jaxon: the boy.

SarahLove

Dear future Jaxon,

When you were four years old you came to visit us in Albuquerque. Uncle Lincoln was playing with you on the hammock in the back yard while you were calling Pearl over to you to play. (You loved calling her ‘your’ dog and she surprisingly allowed you to crawl all over her as you try and pretend she’s a horse-dog.) You flipped off the hammock, head first and landed on the dog bone you were holding in your hand. You gave Uncle Lincoln such a fright when he realized that you would need stitches! Your first emergency room visit kept grandpa laughing though. You were insistent on showing off your new gymnastics trick- of all things: the headstand. Grandpa didn’t think that was such a good idea seeing as your head was, after all, wrapped in gauze. Which you responded with, ‘I’m bored.’ You were such a trickster, just like your dad! Fearless of jumping, rolling, running or getting nice and muddy. By the way, you got right back on the hammock a few days later with me. So brave!

Here are some random facts and stories about the four year old you:

Your favorite color is violet. You made it very clear that it’s not purple, it’s violet. You are very specific.

You’ve decided that your going to sell your old grey VW Beetle (you call it ‘Sow-Bug.’) for a yellow Camero. But you want grandpa to save the VW ‘just for now.’ (I think you will change your mind…. and I think you know it too.) You enjoy talking about vehicles and are really good at recognizing the difference between the various types.

You laugh so much when you put pretend rats on grandma Mona’s head. She acts disgusted and you relish in the idea of it. Full on belly laughter. You love making people laugh.

Your eyes get so big when Uncle Lincoln swings his nun-chucks around. And when he let you hold them, you said, ‘Look- I’m just like Uncle Lincoln!’ You always want to know where he is and what he’s doing. You love that he works at a bakery and he even took you to work with him one day- you were in cookie heaven! You admire people.

I was telling you a story in the car and out of no where you said, ‘What the whatie what?!?’ We laughed about that for at least an hour. You’re spontaneously playful.

You have a ‘ninja turtle face’ that you like to show off. (See image below.) Donatello, to be precise. You are SO silly.

One day you were in my kitchen and you saw a photo of your mom holding you. You told me you really missed her and so I offered to let you call her. You said, ‘No, that’s okay. I will see her soon.’ I was impressed by your grown-up approach! You’re very logical.

On a different note, I sent you to time out three times within fifteen minutes. Each time you cried but each time you came out smiling and ready to resume playing. Later that day, you put yourself in time out. When I questioned why you did that, you said you needed to go there for ‘whining.’ Fair enough. (I went to the other room and tried to muffle my laughter.) You’re very aware of yourself.

You wanted to water the garden in my back yard. Which you did. Before long we were both chasing each other around with the hose, both of us drenched until we had wrinkly fingers and toes. You live in the moment!

Watermelon. You love eating watermelon and wanted to race to see who could finish their slice first! If you can make a race out of something, you will!

When we were on a walk we happened to come across a dead bird. You asked me if it was dead. I said yes. You wrinkled your brow. The next day you told me that you were sad that the bird had to die. So, you requested that I take you back so you could look at it again. You have compassion.

You love finding straight sticks and heavy stones. Your pockets usually have dirt in them. You’re such a boy!

You hug almost everyone you meet and wave hi to other children you see. You are extremely friendly.

Your hair. One day you were put off because you said, ‘it’s a bit flat today.’ You LOVE your curly hair.

One day you grabbed the heart shaped pillow off of my bed and said, ‘Look Auntie, I have a really big heart.’ Um, yes Jaxon…. you do. You do have a really big heart.

Jaxon, I love you so much.

Jaxon flew in from Canada-ish (aka Oregon) and stayed two whole weeks. Let me just exclaim that this time, I got my Kodak moment hug!! I’m talkin’ full on running, arms stretched as far as they could go, yelling ‘Auntieeeee!!!!!’  If he wasn’t old enough to read yet, I would swear that he read my post about how Lincoln stole my last moment and decided to give me a momentous hug. (Totally kidding, Lincoln… you know I love you.) And if that wasn’t amazing enough, we just held each other, in silence, for like three whole minutes- which is like eternity in toddler land. (I learned that when I had to put his sweet face in time-out later in the week. Thank you Super Nanny.)

I had the most amazing time with Jaxon, as I always do. Even though I take photographs of him every time I see him…. I take so many more of him with my mind. And seeing as I use this journal to document my photographic journey, I decided to write something to Jaxon so he can one day look back on it when he is able to read. Hence, the letter above.


May 27 2010

aha moment: all along.

SarahLove

A few weeks ago, I was contacted by a traveling mobile studio. They were passing through New Mexico and had found my site. They read my bio on my site about my passion and they asked if I would be willing to share a little bit more about why and how I knew what to do with my life. SO… of course I said yes!! I was a sweaty perspiring nervous wreck when I arrived. (Thank goodness they didn’t show my pits!!! Seriously, not a pretty sight!) I’ve been in front of the camera before but when it’s not acting, apparently I say ‘um’ too much and have shifty eyes.

We all have countless moments. But the ones that matter the most are the ones that catch us off guard and take our breath away. What is your ‘aha moment’?

It’s hard for me to believe that I run a photography business. More so though, I never realized what kind of an impact it would have on me. Photographs to me are proof that we exist and that is so powerful to me. I love what I do, it just took a while for me to realize that I carried my passion with me all along.

A-ha!

Click on the link below to view my commercial!!

aha moment: all along..


May 21 2010

Amy and James: the look.

SarahLove

Amy is just one of those brides that as soon as we met, we hugged. She is so sweet and in the first nanosecond I met her, I longed to document her lovely disposition!

During the ceremony, Amy’s eyes filled with tears as vows were said and James looked back at her with the look that only people in love share with each other. After the ceremony, they continued to look and hold onto each other as if they were the only people that existed. Love!

It’s those secret looks that keep me loving what I do. It’s all about what love looks like.

It looks like this:

this is real. and i love it!

i love her freckles!! Stunning!

See. Told you she was lovely.

James is too cute.

Don’t you just smile with them??

i love this.

Amy and James, Thank you so much for having us!!


May 10 2010

hand-stitching: just for me

SarahLove

A few weeks ago, I found myself climbing the ladder up into the crawl space between my roof and ceiling, searching for a lost item. The dimly lit space didn’t allow for much light so I grabbed the box I thought contained the item I was looking for. I slowly descended the ladder awkwardly holding the box between my hip and my forearm. Upon opening the box, I inhaled- immediately recognizing the smell of the wooden ceder chest that was in my closet for as long as I could remember. Nostalgia hit me as memories of the flea market purchase of my first cabbage patch doll, Olivia, came back to me. The box was filled with the tiny outfits that used to clothe my baby dolls, the hand-me-downs from which my mother dressed me. As I picked up each outfit, I reminisced, ‘I remember this one….oh wow…. and this one too!’ At the bottom of the box was a smaller white box tied with a red ribbon. As I pulled the string connecting to the neatly tied bow opening the box, it revealed old yellowed tissue paper and a perfectly folded outfit. I wondered, ‘What is this?’ My hands carefully lifted the white dress, recognizing the style of stitching, my eyes welled with tears. I can’t remember seeing the dress in photographs but, I knew that my mom hand stitched it for my christening. I laid the dress across my forearm as if it contained a baby, imagining what my mom must have thought when she cradled me in it. I could only feel the love that she must have had for me. I couldn’t hold back my tears as I thought about all the hand stitched outfits that my mom made, especially for me, throughout the years. I began wondering how many hours she had spent with her hands, a needle and thread. Lost in thoughts of my memories of my mom, I completely forgot what lost item I had gone searching to find.

My mom has made so much time for me and until right now, possibly this very moment, I didn’t completely realize the way that she shows me her love. Sometimes, I think that my mom doesn’t have ‘girl time’ for me. I justify it by thinking that my brothers need more attention than I do. Or maybe it’s just the daily mechanical movement that occurs with life and we don’t take the time to check in with each other. Often thinking if I were to call her, maybe I would be bothering her? I think she has enough on her plate with my schizophrenic brother or the other brother who suffers from kidney disease. I often think, ’she’s too busy for me and that’s okay because they need her more.’ It started to get me feeling sad but then I thought about her sewing.

I recollected my anticipation of moms creation from over six years ago. As my mom sewed the finishing touches on my ornately decorated wedding dress, I could hardly stand waiting any longer! After three months of late nights when yards of material and thread took up most of the living room….. all I could think about was finally putting on my dress so I could simply twirl in it.

Now that I comprehend her time spent, I am able to fully appreciate it.

Today is Mother’s Day and I invited my mom over to my house for brunch. Before long, I was trying on a recently purchased dress that needed a slight strap alteration. (I have short shoulders, okay?? Now you know.) I was asking my mom for advice about what I should do with it. Within moments, my mom was saying, ‘Well, I could sew it here or take it in here for you….’ And she did. On Mother’s Day, a day reserved just for herself, my mom fixed my dress. Just for me.

I seriously can’t remember what I went searching for in the crawl space that day… but whatever it was could never amount to what I discovered.

it reads: Belongs to Sarah, dress and slips. Oct 1979.

my first hand made dress. (fyi Christening dresses are made to be really long in length.)

some of the thread left over from my wedding dress.

the beautiful wedding dress my mom made for me

I am so grateful to have my mom.

She has a particular way of showing us her devotion.

We are loved.


Apr 25 2010

the sweetness of: Jackson James

SarahLove

Micah and Neil had merely celebrated seven days with their baby, Jackson James, when I documented their new family. Unbelievable that in an instant, a mother and father can be taken over with an abundance of love that totally devours their souls. Imagine falling in love at first sight. Now imagine falling in love every time you looked at them. Okay, now do that for seven days straight. That’s the only way I can describe the way that Micah and Neil look at their baby. It’s sweetness in every possible way.

Dear baby Jackson James… you are amazing.

Three years ago Neil told Micah he loved her. Three years later to the day, Micah and Neil brought this home from the hospital. Go ahead and sigh…. I did too.

This watering can belonged to Neil’s great grandpa.

And this picnic basket was used on the day that Neil proposed to Micah.

This is love…. and I LOVE it.

Thank you Micah Neil and baby Jackson for sharing pieces of your journey with me. What an honor. As my gramita used to say, ‘Thanks a millllllion.’

Oh and the cradle?? Micah’s little brother MADE it. Isn’t that incredible?!


Apr 23 2010

Contest: ff99cc WINNER!

SarahLove

For those of you who are my facebook friends, you will know about the ff99cc contest that has been going on for the past day.

The reason why I love ff99cc is because it equals pink in the geek world. And if you know me then you know how much I LOVE pink!! I drive a pink car people!!!

To make it fair, I included your name in the drawing if you guessed or knew what it meant. To make the process even more fair, I wrote names on pieces of paper and threw them on the ground and whichever one Pearl sniffed first- won! Silly, I know but totally legit!

The winner was…

And LOOK WHAT DESIREE WON!!! Told you it was AWESOME.

Along with the ‘Pretty in Pink’ Holga picture taker, Desiree won high speed professional black and white medium format film with it!!! Awesome, awesome, awesome!!!


Apr 20 2010

Annetra and Marcelo. the baby bump.

SarahLove

Annetra and Marcelo flew down from Vegas for their baby bump photo shoot with me! (You probably recognize her from the website!) Annetra is due in 7 weeks and is barely even looks pregnant…. more than anything, she just looks like she had a big dinner. Seriously! I just know she makes other pregnant ladies jealous. Her fantastic sister, Melissa, came along on the shoot and we both had to keep telling Annetra to push her tummy out more. I am not even kidding!!! Her baby bump radiates beauty and the way that her handsome hubby looks at her, you just know that Annetra’s beauty shines 100% of the time too!

lovely.

radiant beauty. Wow, just WOW.

Annetra said, ‘It’s our first official family photo.’ I couldn’t agree more!

i LOVE the way Marcelo looks at her!

i LOVE this one SOOOOO much!!

Annetra and Marcelo, Thank you for trusting me to capturing the milestones of your life. More than anything though, thank you for trusting me to capture your love. It’s amazing, it’s lovely and so so so true. xox, Sarah


Apr 13 2010

Desiree and Seth. the couch.

SarahLove

Our conversation flowed so freely that minutes easily turned into hours.  We talked about music, movies, Block Party with the large ball pit, their children and the different personality traits they each have to share. We entertained each other with ideas about the photography industry and how grateful we are to be doing what fills our hearts with passion. A new friendship gradually slipped into feeling like we were old friends, simply catching up on the years that we missed out on.

During all of our story swapping, Seth talked of a dream that he had before he started dating Desiree. In his dream, he was sitting on a couch and Desiree was next to him. And even though I am certain he has told this story to Desiree in the past, he looked over at her with teary eyes and smiled. She returned the smile while slightly tilting her head lovingly to one side. Seth continued to say that in his dream he remembered feeling the most comfortable he had ever felt in his entire life. That’s the moment I knew that Seth and Desiree’s session had to include ‘the couch’.

adore this

sweet somethings

Desiree, you are truly beautiful.

this is love

and this is love

i love this LOVE!

full of sweetness

Seth and Desiree hadn’t had their photos taken together since their wedding day 13 years ago. They are also extremely talented photographers in Albuquerque and I look up to them greatly. No pressure, right?! I was SO incredibly nervous the days leading up to Seth and Desiree’s session, I couldn’t sleep or hardly eat! Right before their session I was overcome with nervous excitement and I couldn’t stop giggling (which is a nervous habit I have!) This post has been re written countless times and I have decided that I just HAD to post it and not look back.


Apr 8 2010

Truffles, my pigeon.

SarahLove

Truffles got jealous of loved Pearl’s photo session so much, that she insisted on having her own. She hinted all week about it. It started off with rubbing against my leg more frequently. Then she tried flagging me down by swishing her tail in my face every morning- like way too early in the morning.  Finally, she resorted to throwing herself on the bed and making her sweet pigeon noises. And that’s how she got me.  She knows that I will sink into sweet cuddles with her when she makes that noise! Here is one of Pearl’s best friends….. my little pigeon:

This is her ‘I’m cute’ face.

Sweetheart.

Yoga.

The face when she makes her pigeon sounding purrs… she doesn’t even know how cute she is!


Mar 30 2010

romero family. girls only.

SarahLove

This session was just for the Romero girls only. Dad (Adam) was there but on stand-by only, helping his girls look their best. (Which means he held jackets and toys, carried my prop and tied shoes as the girls took turns getting photographed.) Adam loves his gals! How lovely is that? Everyone say, ‘ahhhhhhhhhh…..’

Mothers and daughters out there should get all dressed up and have a photo session just to celebrate  being beautiful!! I loved this session TONS!!!

Crystal looks fabulous EVERY. TIME. I. see. her. In uniform or not- she is simply gorgeous!

LOVIN’ the sparkle on her shoulder.

One HOT mama.

Bunny, Zea and Jaedon = beauties!! (FYI- Outfits were purchased at Gymboree.)

Bunny and Zea (twins) have such a special bond.

Jaedon just ‘oozes’ model material!!! Que bonita!

Loved seeing you stylish girls, as always!! xox, Sarah